Honestly, I don’t know what made this week go by so slowly. It was just a four day week yet this week seemed so much longer than the rest. Probably because I had a lot of free time on my hands and the worry about grades? I’m not really too sure. It’s a weird feeling though. Because when it all comes down to it, I’ve finally discovered a lot about myself that I didn’t before.
I’m a really territorial person. I hate sharing and everything. I don’t even really like it when people use my stuff. I also realized that I really do like him. Which is sad. Because I have a really close relationship with him now and he likes someone else and I don’t want to lose what I have with him. Oh jealousy, can’t you let this go by just once, but of course you can’t. And now in order for me to not lose him, I have to lose this feelings, which is well, just as hard. I really hate the fact that I’m an emotional person right now. I don’t even know what to do with it anymore. Another thing that I realized is that I really think too much about others before myself, I mean I know that I do it, but I won’t change that habit; it’s just become a huge part of me.