“Somewhere someone is thinking of you. Someone is calling you an angel. This person is using celestial colors to paint your image. Someone is making you into a vision so beautiful that it can only live in the mind. Someone is thinking of the way your breath escapes your lips when you are touched. How your eyes close and your jaw tightens with concentration as you give pleasure a home. These thoughts are saving a life somewhere right now. In some airless apartment on a dark street, someone is calling out to you silently and you are answering without even being there. So crystalline. So pure. Such life saving power when you smile. You will never know how you have cauterized my wounds. So sad that we will never touch. How it hurts me to know that I will never be able to give you everything I have.”—Henry Rollins (via fleurishes)
There’s like two main things on my mind right now: my health project and this guy that I’m crushing on. I mean the health project, I’m stressing out about because of the pamphlets due tomorrow and I’m scared that something will go missing or SOMETHING WILL JUST HAPPEN TO THEM. But this time, I hope and pray that nothing happens and I successfully pass health class. Next topic, the guy I like. He’s one of the funniest people I’ve ever met and he’s actually willing to sacrifice his homework time, and sleeping time in the process, just to cheer me up. He’s really sweet. And on top of that, he tells me all these sweet things and it’s like how can you not fall for him? But, I’m just so sure that he doesn’t like me back yet all my friends say he does. I really don’t know at this point… He’s special and important and I don’t want to lose this relationship, yet at the same time, I don’t know how much longer I can stay “just friends”.
The person that made the biggest impact on my life would definitely be my mom. Like no doubt, she’s influenced me the most throughout my life and she’s the one who took care of me since I was still a child. But, regardless, my mom was the only one who believed in me all the time, regardless of how stupid of a thing I’ve done. My mom was the one who comforted me when I was crying and she’s always looking out for me and hoping what’s best for me. I know that this sounds super corny but it’s true.
It means I trust you enough to hope that you won’t judge me or use it against me one day. Please don’t make me regret breaking down my walls for you. Please don’t be another reason for me to continue to believe that every single person that walks into my life will eventually let me down. I trust you, you have no idea how hard that is for me to do nowadays.
communication [v] : to give or interchange thoughts, feelings, and information effectively
Communication is huge - not just in every relationship but every type of relationship. Communication shouldn’t exist only between you and your significant other, it should exist between you and everyone in your life. Don’t overlook all the people that were there for you before you entered your slow-motion happiness, and if you do, don’t expect them to be there when you exit your slow-motion happiness.
There will be people that doesn’t like communicating with you sometimes, then there will be people that doesn’t like communicating with you.
Which should be fine. Right?
You can’t force communication - if you do, it gets ugly. To communicate with someone means you end the conversation understanding the viewpoint of the party you were speaking with. You can’t force communication because you can’t force anyone to understand something. You can’t force the other person nor can you force yourself, and if the actual conversation was effective, you shouldn’t have to.
For the people that doesn’t like communicating with you sometimes, just chill and wait.
For the people that doesn’t like communicating with you all the time, maybe you want to move on. It could be a friend or it could be a significant other - know when your efforts are futile and know when to stop.
People can exit just as quick as they entered your life. Most of the time, it’s not your fault and it’s not that person’s fault. Your two personalities just couldn’t coexist with one another at the time. So for those that are hurting, here’s some big words for you to digest and integrate into your day-to-day basis while living life.
This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient. What if you were to hear it and afterwards leave This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess Giving approval, give (my) blessing wholeheartedly, then let go.
Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend It’s already, already enough.
From a distance, in the background of “universal silence”, just observing is enough.
The best day of my life would be when I went to the SMTown concert. Actually, the best three hours. I mean regardless of the fact that my sister got us lost, I got a lot of exercise that day. And just watching the performances made me scream and laugh and cheer and just about everything else. I swear, I don’t think I ever screamed that much in a day or ever really cheered for anything besides that day. It was a lot of fun xP . We were so hyper that day, especially me because I was just so happy and I kept on running around.
Honestly, I have no idea what I’ve been doing all break -.- . I mean I guess I did my did all my homework and I hung out with all my friends and that was pretty fun. I mean from this break, all I’ve realized is that I’ve grown up. And in the process, left some things behind. I mean as odd as it is, I actually didn’t procrastinate as much this break. Which is a new one because I generally don’t finish/almost finish homework until the Sunday before school starts. So definitely a major accomplishment for me (:
And I have to say that this is one of the few breaks that I’m actually not looking forward to going back to school. I mean honestly a lot of thought and realizations had come into play and quite frankly, I don’t know how to face “him” anymore. I mean sure, I sort of still like him, but during this break, I’ve come to really “forget” him. I mean during this break I really reevaluated what is in our relationship, and somehow in these four months, we’ve already started to drift.
It’s not just another word or adjective.. It will haunt the girl forever. She won’t be able to sleep at night. She won’t be able to function for the longest time. Every time she looks in the mirror she’ll want to cry. Sticks and stones may break her bones but words might make her want to kill herself.