So I'm a BANA and a Best Friend (: LOLOL. If I'm a Battery too, I'm going to be like ...
BANA: B1A4’s fanclub name. BA (B1A4) NA (fans). Therefore you get BANA.
Best Friend : Boyfriend’s fanclub name. BEST(베스트) hold the meaning that Boyfriend will always rely on the trusty and reliable. Friend(프렌드) means, Boyfriend’s friend that has been and will always be together [with Boyfriend] and is always there. And to Boyfriend, the best will always be the fans and friends. (http://boyfriendboyband.wordpress.com/2011/08/10/boyfriend-fan-club-name/)
And MYNAME and AA’s fanclub names are still undecided. If AA’s fanclub’s name is actually Battery, then I’m a Battery. Hm.
Yesterday, I had a dream in which I was talking to this important person so much and that's so weird. And then today, I had a dream where I got knocked out and he was beside me and we were being how we were in real life. I think I really miss him even though it's only been a week. WTF SON.
I think I'll live my life misunderstood. It's easier like that sometimes. No one really understands me. They always believe what others say and they don't think about what type of person I am. But all in all, I think I'm used to it. No need to explain to someone who would believe what others are saying and not what you're saying.
I think that after all the "stuff" I've been through, I finally managed to let go. Telling him how I really felt about him and some things that won't ever change had become my closure. It's really weird though. I didn't think that with that, I would've experience closure. I think that it's all better this way. It doesn't matter what we've once felt, all that matters is the present. He has a girlfriend now and I don't want to hinder her happiness or his in general. He's happy now and I really don't want to be the reason that it changes. It may suck that he's happy without me. But I'm okay with it now.
I think it was that day that I got the results back. I cried like there was no tomorrow. I was just upset over it and I sat in the shower and cried. It’s always that that makes me upset. It’ll being the second worse day. The first time was the first results. I don’t know if anything has made me more upset.
Life isn't perfect. And neither are the people in it. So when problems arise, it's your decision whether to fix the problem or ignore it. Sometimes and more of the time, ignoring seems a lot easier. But, if you fix the problem now, youll probably be better off later on. so will you choose to fix it, or not ?
I can’t say that there was a best day. I’ve definitely had a lot of times that I’ve had fun and joking around with others. One of the times was when I spent all night talking to him and we were acting nutty. It was fun (:. Another time would be going out with the gang. I don’t really have the best day.
Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011.
1. Meeting him <3. My best friend. He’s the sweetest thing that I’ve ever met. He gives me hugs every day after Chem and that’s the thing that I look forward to. He bought me food for Christmas too. And the food is from a joke that I made up and I don’t know why he remembered but he did. AND LIKE. He told me I was special and that I was an exception (he doesn’t mind that I ever bother him) and he’s just so sweet. I’ve seen the dark side of him once but his anger wasn’t directed toward me and I think that he really does trust me. I don’t know that I’m his best friend but he’s one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. Merry Christmas (; . Note: It’s funny that I’ve really only known him since like November.
2. Knowing HIM. I don’t even know what to say about this. There’s been so many ups and downs this year that I can’t even put it into words. I think that our stupidity has prevailed for this one. I really don’t know what to even say. OMG. I’ve gotten into so many cold wars with him so many times this year and I don’t know why but I feel like we’re still really close.
3. All the times in Tao’s room. I swear. I had so much fun. We have so much stupidity but I find so much fun in his room. He teaches us self-defense and it’s so fun. We help him grade papers all the time. But it’s mad fun in his class.
4. CHEM CLASS. The ice cream making and all of the stupidity in our class. We’ve done so many stupid things and made so many stupid jokes that it’s been so much fun. The stupid jokes that we make is so funny. It’s so fun.
5. The trip to the museum. LOL I had so much fun. And then the rain. And then we went out to eat and I got Nathan’s. I had so much fun (:
Day 1: A few things you will never forget in 2011. Day 2: Relationship(s). Day 3: The best day. Day 4: The worst day. Day 5: The most memorable moment. Day 6: Your best friend(s). Day 7: Your birthday. Day 8: The funnest getaway. Day 9: The end of last school year/the beginning of this one. Day 10: New Year resolutions.
December 21, 2011 4 things you want to do before Christmas. Why?
1. Make up with those people that I’ve had major fights in this year or I just haven’t been talking to lately. I really miss them because I don’t talk to them anymore. It pretty much sucks to not talk to the people that you really care about just because YOU DON’T HAVE TIME.
2. I want to get better. It really sucks to be sick on Christmas. If I’m sick over Christmas I’ll be mad all Christmas. I hate being sick =.=
3. Cheer my best friend up. He’s been mad over stupid math grade and he’s just upset. I don’t want him made over the break and it’s really not something to get mad at :<
4. Spend some time with the people I really care about. HOPING THAT IT’S THIS FRIDAY <3. I love my friends and I haven’t hung out with some of them in a while so I hope that this is it ~
All I really want for Christmas this year is to talk to those that I think are really close to me again. It's been a weird few months and there's some people that I completely lost contacts with. I don't want that for the holidays this year.