I can say that besides the fact that I can't down with him, this has been the best New Year's Eve ever (:
January 2012
You Didnt Kill Me
Sarah West
You didn’t kill me, You made me stronger.
Happy New Year's Eve !!!
December 2011
I think there's something seriously wrong with me. Every time I seriously try to forget someone, they always pop up in my dreams. I really miss them, don't I? Then, why am I trying to forget?
anc0ra replied to your post: So I’m a BANA and a Best Friend (: LOLOL. If I’m a Battery too, I’m going to be like …
BATTERY. HAHAHAHA. DOUBLE A BATTERY. I just can’t, I’m sorry. :’)
I KNOW LOL. I’m one of them who was pushing for it. It was hysterical. And it’s like. So… I’m a Battery… LMFAO.
So I'm a BANA and a Best Friend (: LOLOL. If I'm a Battery too, I'm going to be like ...
So:
BANA: B1A4’s fanclub name. BA (B1A4) NA (fans). Therefore you get BANA.
Best Friend : Boyfriend’s fanclub name. BEST(베스트) hold the meaning that Boyfriend will always rely on the trusty and reliable. Friend(프렌드) means, Boyfriend’s friend that has been and will always be together [with Boyfriend] and is always there. And to Boyfriend, the best will always be the fans and friends. (http://boyfriendboyband.wordpress.com/2011/08/10/boyfriend-fan-club-name/)
And MYNAME and AA’s fanclub names are still undecided. If AA’s fanclub’s name is actually Battery, then I’m a Battery. Hm.
Yesterday, I had a dream in which I was talking to this important person so much and that's so weird. And then today, I had a dream where I got knocked out and he was beside me and we were being how we were in real life. I think I really miss him even though it's only been a week. WTF SON.
I think I'll live my life misunderstood. It's easier like that sometimes. No one really understands me. They always believe what others say and they don't think about what type of person I am. But all in all, I think I'm used to it. No need to explain to someone who would believe what others are saying and not what you're saying.
I'm totally not up at 3 in the morning because I just finished Flower Boy Ramyun Shop (:
I think that after all the "stuff" I've been through, I finally managed to let go. Telling him how I really felt about him and some things that won't ever change had become my closure. It's really weird though. I didn't think that with that, I would've experience closure. I think that it's all better this way. It doesn't matter what we've once felt, all that matters is the present. He has a girlfriend now and I don't want to hinder her happiness or his in general. He's happy now and I really don't want to be the reason that it changes. It may suck that he's happy without me. But I'm okay with it now.
Day 4: The worst day.
I think it was that day that I got the results back. I cried like there was no tomorrow. I was just upset over it and I sat in the shower and cried. It’s always that that makes me upset. It’ll being the second worse day. The first time was the first results. I don’t know if anything has made me more upset.
