Finally Dad says, ” Life isn’t a math problem, is it?”
“Neat solutions, you mean?” - Jade
“It’s kind of messy,” says Mom.
“All you can do is your best,” says Dad. I know that sounds trite, and that sometimes our best isn’t good enough. But it’s all we’ve got. And you’ll learn from this and hopefully you won’t make the same mistake, but that doesn’t mean you won’t make lots of others. We can’t live backwatds. That would be easy. It’s making decisions and not knowing how things will turn out that’s hard.”
"When I saw you in trouble, all this seemed silly. I don't blame you. You made a mistake. And I SHOULD have listened, you were right about that. You don't need to be jealous, though. I was never interested in her. Never." ~ Jon (Far by Carol Matas)
Or are they actually both real—just different? And is it all magic? I may never know for sure. One thing I am sure of is that I’m lucky to have my best friend back. The truth it, we’ll try to figure it out together.
"Every man is granted free will. If he desires to incline towards the good way and be righteous, he has the power to do so; and if he desires to incline towards the unrighteous way, and be a wicked way, he also has the power to do so." ~ Moses Maimonides
... He told me he loved me through writing. Wasn't that the same as telling me he wasn't going to leave my side? He told me he loved me... but he didn't even say goodbye </3 ~ Elli Cole (fanfiction.net)
My passion I think is singing. I love singing because it’s one of the ways that I actually express my feelings <3. Too bad that I wanna give it up… Anywho, singing is a great way to let go and express all your feelings; to let go of the present and just be yourself <3
As of the moment, my current (current meaning as of 1am today, just saying) obsession is Big Time Rush. I’m seriously watching like every single video on their website :D. Hehe. A combination of hot guys and a very amusing plot in their show and amazing voices. It’s just awesome. And as of right now, my only escape from my real life… So <3.
do you remember how we used to talk almost every single day for hours&hours, and we’d never run out of things to say? even though our conversations didn’t have much significant meaning to them, I liked it nonetheless. you know how people say, “if you’re stressed, eat dessert”? yeah, you were like my dessert every day LOL. talking to you was a chance to unwind. it was nice. no seriousness, no drama. just talking about the most irrelevant things.. I would mention them but you have a tumblr, which you haven’t been so active on lately. truthfully, i thought it would last forever. Or at least, longer than it did. &i wonder if you’re ever gonna read this. but anyway.. it all just stopped a few months ago, and it struck me right away- did I do something wrong ? you dont know how much time i spent thinking about all the possibilities. it was like a slap across the face, really. was it supposed to tell me something? was i supposed to figure it out myself? or am I just over thinking it, as usual? i would start off the conversation for once, but I still feel like there’s still something wrong and that I shouldn’t even try |: I apologize for the cheese, but I miss you, a lot.
so guys, if there’s one thing I learned, it’s to never take people for granted. because when they’re all over your life one day and completely out the next .. don’t be wondering why.
Ironically, I was just talking about something like this with one of my besties. But we both came to conclusion that we won’t learn until we come in contact with the situtation because you could always TRY to prevent it but it’s hard and it may not work. I think that everyone has had this feeling that a friendship, a relationship will last forever but in truth, it may not. You have to spend a lot of time and effort to keep it going. And quite frankly, if you’re really attached, you may have to keep holding on even when you feel the other person has given up. Because you cannot say that you’re letting go of something if you didn’t hold on with all your might (ShinWoo~You’re Beautiful).
People always tell me to express my feelings when I don't like something. They tell me to talk to the person that I'm having a problem with. But you know what, I won't because I always seem like the bad person in the end.
I chose trust. For one, without trust, you can’t have love. And I just think that trust is more important; I would be more furious with my friend even she didn’t trust me rather than she didn’t love me.
Day 16; If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
As stupid as this can sound, I just want happiness for people. I mean like if everyone could me happy (including me), there wouldn’t be so many problems with the people in some lives. I mean like my life…, if I would just be happy and forget all else, we wouldn’t have so many of the problems that we have now…
It's a big mistake to assume that everyone is living the way they want to. There are people in this world who have to truly hide who they are because they are afraid of being judged. Have you ever thought about that?
Day 15; What’s something you wish you could say to that someone?
What’s something you wish you could say to that someone?
I’m sorry. I never meant to say those things. Even though we don’t talk anymore, I still love you and I wish you the best of luck. I never stopped loving you just I didn’t see clearly. I’m really sorry and I miss you but we can’t go back to those days, can we…? And I know that sorry means nothing but I cannot express my feelings in any other way… I never meant to and now, it’s torn us apart </3